the final year research thesis deadline coming up...and everyone's striving+giving their best
the graduation's nearing...and everyone's busy planning and preparing for the ultimate europe trips with parents+friends...

but what is a perfect score in the thesis,or a perfect europe getaway with love ones...

when i STILL need a pass.for PP3?

i hope i'm not giving up...

am I creative or what?*whistle*

hApPie bUrfdAy LeeYin =)

xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

hApPie bUrfdAy old women!lol
love u lotz!

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

I met a wee Czech girl today.

Her mum was busy keeping the change into her purse, and so i passed her the bag instead.

"Děkuji."

taking the bag,she gave me her smile in return.the sweetest smile...cuteness!

liar liar pants on fire

Ann called.
a deep breath and i decided to pick up the phone.

uncountable texts,voicemails and missed calls from her but i just couldn't make myself replying... come to think of it,i really don't know why.taking a bus trip alone every 6weeks to the southside just....doesn't sound comfortable.mixing with a whole group of gwailous doesn't sound comfortable.either.

the point is...im weak.aye...i admit my lack of knowledge in christianity,lack of communication skills make me inferior...praying alone,aye sure.praying aloud infront of everyone?neh...

i had been thinking hard...for an excuse,of why i did not reply to her call/text...but i could hear Ps.Liam's sermon..continuously playin in my mind...guess it was God aye?XD i thought i might still be called for stewarding even tho i've missed the meetings+not replying to any of their text/calls but i was wrong...no text calling me for stewarding.

so....finally i decided to give Ann a text.still...have not given up in making a "reasonable excuse"
>>busy with assignments so unable to make it for meetings.
aye rite.

she phoned me up today...somehow after a wee chatting,i told her about the real reason for me not being able to attend the meetings.
she said no problem.and told me to contact jossy about it...and that she will mail me the stuff instead since i can't make it for the meetings.

i almost teared wey...

oklar right now sure u'll be thinkin whatz the big fuss lar...just freaking take a bus and go to the meetings lar since it's every 6weeks,kan?and whatz the big deal with telling Ann a lie/a truth lar,kan?

geez.......dunno lah,i guess only me myself understands whatz happening in my head rite now lah.

say people...

it's just darn frustrating lar,when u know somethin's so good...but yet people doesn't believe u,and then u don't have enough knowledge and ability to convince them to blieve u.absobloodylutely(quoted from minimei) frustrating.

aiyah..the bottomline is...

God is good lah. =)

the last lecture

nice.
=)

my all time favourite...

it was raining heavily.
a very old lady slipped and fell while crossing the busy road.hard.
her old husband struggled to get her back on her feet.
the green light turned red.
and the stupid traffic actually honked them.

i swear i'll never allow my parents to be like them.

Ps. Liam said...

the lowest level of christianity: is being blessed
but the highest level of christianity: is to be a blessing. =)

surprised.

luyi's 29/2 surprise reminded me about this wee surprise i got few weeks back as well...but ofcourse lah,ppl's surprise and mine different lah...mine is just so that i can "stay strong and don't give up"...i dunno about ppl wan lah..

the rumours about the result for our pp3 resit exam were high...we were devastated.yes,not even one from the WHOLE gang of us got a 'pass' for that bloody exam...again.

for this sweet anonymous,thanks alot of the choc...but surprises will only work on me when i get to know the truth in the end...and no,until i know who gave me this,it shall continue to sit quietly on my table.as for the pp3 resit results...i choose to continue to be an ostrich, i.e. I choose not to ask and not to find out whether the rumour's true...till then,i'm still praying for a miracle to happen.

70 words

Speedtest

ok i know i shouldn't be doing this when i can spend that very minute (and another 2minutes used for bloggin) to read through journals...oh well...

nerve compression...sien sial. ><"

"dear God,why did You create 'distance'?"

just when i thought i've found life,just when i thought i've found new friends...just when i realised i am about to leave and move on again.

I was half way rushing to complete my research results.

the deadline's tomorrow.

I couldn't find my soft copy of my microscopic data.

I need to submit my photocopied visa to my boss at work.

HE tell me to stop doing my report and go submit my visa.

the Glasgow rain+gust.

HE tell me to stop doing my report and go submit my visa.

i went.

damn i was down.and worried.and wonder what will happen if I really couldn't find my research data.

him:hiya EJ!good to see you..*a smile that melts my heart STAT*
me: hi dav..*went on to tell him that i was there to submit the photocopied visa*

him:aye,u can leave it to me.oh and the problem regarding your pay's all sorted out ya' know..*THAT smile again...*melts even faster...
me:*went on to the usual "oh really,geez thanks blablabla*

him:*looks at the photocopied visa*!@%^%$^%^(scot-glish which i couldn't understand)..EJ actually look pretty and quite cheeky in these photos aye?*laughs*
me:*terus melt 101%...*

couldn't help but smile all the way back...ah...nevermind the results.

HE really knows how to brighten up my days! =D

ohyea,did i mention that i manage to sneak into the computer lab(there was classes going on) and found the data i wanted?

~sweeeet~

omigosh omigosh omigosh...he actually remembers meeeeee!!!

him:hi, im *not going to tell u who*
me:hi, im EJ(coz pronouncing "yi jie" is too complicated from angmohs)

him:oh yea,i remember u.u were sitting right at the back.
me:*trying to control my excitement while faking*oh really?

*grins ear to ear*

omigosh omigosh...excited can?!

hm...just to give you the level of his good looking-ness...let just say...
he beats the "3As" handsdown.no doubt.

ahh....*faints*

fish says:
sm koko ajak mkn kebab..

cYber_fiSh®-www.cyber-fish.blogspot.com says:
no thanks for me..more than enuf meat for me recently

fish writes:

XDXD

just incase u're wonderin...fish is the tiger,while cyber-fish is the cow...and sm koko is the mouse.

stress stress stress*background:fish singin the onion song* XDXDXD

14022008

Happie 3rd Anniversary,peeps. =)

and

Happie Valentine's..mwah~*

I might not be blessed with a pass..
but I'm blessed to have a bunch of peeps like u...

thanks for all the effort gals...i thank God for you, you and you.

but lets continue to pray for a miracle...lets have it His way.

Happie Chinese New Year,peeps.

1st time not celebrating chinese new year at home!ahh~good ole Sitiawan...

i actually made an effort to look for these programmes in Youtube!the more traditional the better!and i replayed and watched the whole thing over n over again!

homesick aside,how many of us will actually watch those chinese new year programmes shown on RTM2 every year?not me...

now i learnt to not take things for granted...

hApPiE cHiNeSe nEw yeAr everyone! =)

I can't possibly handle another failure.
not now...

Lord,I need a miracle.

Why do i have teeth that's so special?WHY?WHY?WHY?

my set of teeth are well taken care of since the day i was born(even when i'm toothless!) and now my toothache is driving me nutz!

just because of the darn special teeth i have.DAMN THANG!

The thought of spending prolly three hundred pounds to get a hole drilled into my perfectly fine tooth and kill it pissed me off.real bad.

ARGHHHHHH~!!!!!fcuk.

i thought i've done my job pretty well...
but guess i'm wrong.
in fact,i'm way far from what i thought i've achieved.
i'm running out of idea what i should do to achieve anymore...by just being myself?
ya rite.it just sound oh-so-utopian.

guess the fear of being disappointed is still lurking...somewhere.

am i still expecting too much?or am i really still not good enough...to be called as a qualified pal?