Generation gap >_<

since young,i nvr really experienced generation gaps...until recently...wif the prescence of "2 pendatang haram",which make things worst...

i'm no longer young n ignorant,i can feel that dad loved me very much...he tried very hard to "befriend" me,to talk at the same level as me...not many fathers r able to do that,to actually put down their "great ego-ness" n try "pleasing" their children...for example,when i stayed up late sometimes to go online,he will actually accompany me indirectly by sitting infront of the tv at the living room,which often he'll fall asleep...i know dad loves me..i REALLY DO!!but then sometimes,what dad said/do makes me wonder...whether to laugh or to cry...things said n done alwayz seemed to land on the wrong time,n the wrong place,which often made me more annoyed than pleased..in the end,i often hurt his feelings...n regreted after that...

being the eldest in the family,dad has the character of sacrificing his own desire in order to please others...but sometimes,some lousy fellas like to take things for granted..as if the whole world owe her somethin...wtf...all this tend to make ppl who loved him upset...which often, is mum...

frankly,d prescence of the "pendatang haram" recently really made things worst..it upsets mum,it upsets me...n dad gets upset as well...being the unwelcome one,i think the "pendatang haram" felt uneasy as well..but the pendatang's lousy "care-taker" is enjoying her life now somewhere north...really...useless fella!i mean,who on earth r they to come here interfering our peaceful lifes?!mum's holiday jz started,n i think she really needs a break...dad's kinda stress bcoz of work 2..n i think that f*ckin fella should giv my dad a break too!darned angry with them..really wanted 2 phone up n scold the hell out of her~!!to make things worst,the pendatang haram,being pendatang themselves,couldn b bother 2behave n take care of themselves...what the heck...UR MOTHER NEVER TEACH U AH? (no,thatz eactly what their mother taught them...)

so in the end,this holiday turned up side down...mum,who r suppose 2relax..bcome more stressful...n dad,knowin that v r not happy with the prescence of the "pendatang haram",but nevertheless,love+felt responsible towards the "pendatang haram"..made him serba salah,n super sensitive when mum n me joked bout the "pendatang haram"..all this eventually affect our relationships...

everythin seemed to widen the gap between dad n me...im very upset with it...n i'm also being kinda passive infront of dad n the "pendatang haram" now...well,i guess "less talking,less mistakes"?

for now,i jz wished that the "pendatang haram" will leave...n somethin..SOMETHIN?SOMEONE? PLEASE enlighten their "Care-taker"...i mean...GET THE HELL OUTTA OUR LIVES,FOR GOD SAKE!

feelin really bad for hurtin daddy...Happy Father's day,daddy.