lost~

seriously need some directions now...yes,NOW!!
i had thought being courageous is one of the clue in relationship 2 yrs ago..but i guess my courage in dealing with it diminished when things ended "pre-maturely"...

the loss in courage didn bother me...until now...-today-

i thought it wont bother me...i thought i just need 2 avoid n everythin'll b fine...
*kinda hard 2type stuf when i'm tryin not 2make things obvious XD*

met him today,didn hv any conversation...but then..i couldn concentrate after that...not at all.
stuff about him just played in my mind non-stop,it made me upset...i felt like screamin in the lecture hall!

actually both of us weren't close...v dun really talked,no seriously talking la i mean...the things v shared is jokes,jokes...n jokes...but somehow......argh~whtz so special bout him anyway?i had been asking myself many times...but the answer is still unknown.

mum advised me not 2 think 2much...in short,forget bout him.yeah...being courageous is a no no...bad experience XD
despite mum's advice,i juz couldn help but continue 2 think...n continue 2 admire...n love...perhaps?nah..."like" is a better word

perhaps if i'm good lookin or i'm fragile....or suffer from constant migraine XD...or suffer from bad menses pain....stuff wont be like this?XD

i sound so pathetic lah wey....XD

anyway,if u happened 2b readin this until this far...just forget whatever i crapped okay...n DON'T ask question...no,i wont tell u who's HE