Ann called.
a deep breath and i decided to pick up the phone.
uncountable texts,voicemails and missed calls from her but i just couldn't make myself replying... come to think of it,i really don't know why.taking a bus trip alone every 6weeks to the southside just....doesn't sound comfortable.mixing with a whole group of gwailous doesn't sound comfortable.either.
the point is...im weak.aye...i admit my lack of knowledge in christianity,lack of communication skills make me inferior...praying alone,aye sure.praying aloud infront of everyone?neh...
i had been thinking hard...for an excuse,of why i did not reply to her call/text...but i could hear Ps.Liam's sermon..continuously playin in my mind...guess it was God aye?XD i thought i might still be called for stewarding even tho i've missed the meetings+not replying to any of their text/calls but i was wrong...no text calling me for stewarding.
so....finally i decided to give Ann a text.still...have not given up in making a "reasonable excuse"
>>busy with assignments so unable to make it for meetings.
aye rite.
she phoned me up today...somehow after a wee chatting,i told her about the real reason for me not being able to attend the meetings.
she said no problem.and told me to contact jossy about it...and that she will mail me the stuff instead since i can't make it for the meetings.
i almost teared wey...
oklar right now sure u'll be thinkin whatz the big fuss lar...just freaking take a bus and go to the meetings lar since it's every 6weeks,kan?and whatz the big deal with telling Ann a lie/a truth lar,kan?
geez.......dunno lah,i guess only me myself understands whatz happening in my head rite now lah.
say people...
it's just darn frustrating lar,when u know somethin's so good...but yet people doesn't believe u,and then u don't have enough knowledge and ability to convince them to blieve u.absobloodylutely(quoted from minimei) frustrating.
aiyah..the bottomline is...
God is good lah. =)
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