Wednesday, February 07, 2007

doing taekwondo was my dream since very young..but then, due to my very tomboy-ish nature, mum insisted on sending me for more girlie stuffs..-piano and ballet- i guess partly she wanted me 2 fulfill what she dreamt but couldn do when she was young.. yup, i fully understand n now, i actually thank her for "forcing" me to attending both piano+ballet =) if i were to realise earlier, i guess i would have taken more initiative to actually learn both of the art...PROPERLY.

i used to complain about the ever tired+stressful trainin+piano classes i have to attend..i would try 2 escape practicing my steps+music pieces whenever i couldn,till the extend where mum had to take a cane, sit beside me after dinner everyday so that i would practice my pieces..(sambil crying la sometimes XD) but i guess somehow..the chinese sayin's true..江山易改,本性难移. well,despite years of ballet+piano classes,yi jie remained...yi jie. XD

after years of dreaming to do taekwondo, it was finally fulfiled..here, in imu. where i no longer stays wif mum XP kinda regreted for not insisting mum to send me for taekwondo when i was young coz if i did, i would have already been a very "yao yeng" gal wearing the black belt uniform..like evelyn.or joan. =D anyway, i INSISTED in joining the taekwondo club during the sem1 recruitment drive. i guess due to the stretchin i endured during ballet classes (+ gimrama XD), the stretchin part in taekwondo trainin was easy..n i LOVED doing what i CAN do..haha~kiasu ma..the few classes of taekwondo during form 2 helped me to figure out the basic steps of taekwondo easily as well..

front kick
turning kick
forward+back stance
horse-riding stance
lower+upper block
inner+outer block

even the warming up+the jumping over fren (which peiling hated most)...seemed so familiar to me.

so i guess i kinda fooled most of the taekwondo seniors here in imu =P they tot i was "gifted" in taekwondo..haha..n they predicted i would actually get a double promo for my white belt grading...<
well, u know when u're dipandang tinggi,u kinda kembang a bit de la..so when the result was anounced and i didn get a double promo,i was disappointed..VERY disappointed.i continued doing taekwondo tho(wont giv up so easily de la..unlike somebody XD)...but then, the flame kinda cool down a bit...not that enthusiastic anymore..especially after i realised that i wont get my black belt by the time i leave imu...not even if i train hard...

white>>yellow 1,2>>green1,2>>blue1,2...

27/2 will be my blue2 grading...sir kinda revised our grading syllabus during yesterday's training..i was scolded by him...for not remembering my poomsae,and my too-low-kicks?!was actually quite proud of my high kicks...for the 1st time..i kena bcoz of TOO LOW kicks?!!was angry of myself..very disappointed of myself as well...for not being good enuf in taekwondo..where's the enthusiasm i showed b4 this?!i mean, it was my DREAM..n when now i actually have a chance to fulfill my dream...i DONT appreciate it!i was supposed to try my best n what did i do for the past yrs during training?!!complainin bout the tiring trainin,not practising when sir's not looking...even sor eng said my kicks were not as powerful as b4 anymore...heck...what m i thinking?!!

guess papa's comment was true ("u do things evtime oso hangat2 tahi ayam de")...ARGH~~STUPID!m so good in finding excuse for not excelling in things now...

"why ur stamina dropped ah?why ur kicks all not good ah?why u forgot ur poomsae ah?"

aiya,no time ma...stress lah..lotsa assignments..tests coming oso lah....

"why ur test results suck ah?"

aiya,dunno leh...not enuf time to study la..the stupid lecturer la..dunno set what kinda confusing questions..

ya rite.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

harlor eJ ^_* , aza-aza fighting!!! u can do it! :) ..miss u all lotz... wish u all the best in the coming cns exam:)

HeNrY said...

mebe u shud learn ballet back :D
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ti3nD said...

aiks i mus leave a comment here, as being one another tkd freak since young! ;p

ummmmmmm.... kinda shock to hear that from u!!!
cant get ur black belt b4 LEAVING imu doesnt mean that u WONT get ur black belt one day mah..

aiiihz.. i 'sit dai' teach u all in UK yau dim wah jek? (provided im free arh! ;p)

n a black belt dont actually impress any guy(me XD) larh, prefer piano n ballet! ;p

hehe.. ;0)

all the best for coming grading, mayb u get double promo from blue1 to brown2?

its difficult but its possible, i got my only one promotion from green2 to blue2 lerh!lolz ;p

paiseh for conteng-ing ur blog.. hehe.. cya afta hols... happie cny yeah! ;)

eve said...

alamak, min tien beat me to it.

this is gonna be long.

holding a black belt doesn't mean that much, really. when you get it, you'll realise that it's just another part of the journey. min tien is 3rd dan and you see people going for senior upgrading every now and then... and you realise that black belt is not the end. heck, it's not even the beginning.

it's not about impressing the guys (wouldn't you prefer the guy to impress you instead? kekeke) or even getting the black belt before graduation.

it's the fun and the feeling that whatever you do, whatever stresses you encounter, taekwondo training is this little constant thing that we can come back to and have fun. it really doesn't matter where you are and what you have been up to, everyone feels welcome and at home @ OUR taekwondo club, no?

don't see yourself as a disappointment la. Sir is so proud of you guys being colour belts and still can be so reliable in handling taekwondo stuff... and kai meng actually enjoys conducting class and bullying you.

we are who we are not from what belt we wear or what skill we possess. it's from the distances we are willing to travel and the marks we leave in other people's lives.

having you (and joan, sor eng, han liang and pei ling) in the club is something that i repeatedly thank God for. without you guys, i don't think there IS a taekwondo club worth maintaining