sem break last project...-Broga Camp-

maybe everyone's bored for the past 5weeks?haha,anyway..ding dong ti3n was kind enuf 2organize a camp for us..(actually it's suppose 2b organized by the infinity miller society-.-") *tHanx lotZ ya ding dong~^^

1st dAy -10/6/2006-
-gathered infront of imu around 9am...22 of us
-drivers: ti3n,kiddo,yuen,Qris and the imu Unser..^^
-participators:Ju-On,NS,Feihing,fish,babi wern,peiling,sjian,smiin,kAhyee,yijie,joanne,wmeng, grace,the couple, jason,shaolin soccer,amelia

-reached Broga(jz realise that it's actually a place at the NS-Selangor border) 1hr++ later n went thru some ice breakers...helped us 2know each other's name tho i find the game kinda lame..XD
-after checkin in,v had our "bento"...everyone was complainin bout the air sirap...2sweet la,food ave la..bla~bla~

-after every1 settled down,v headed towards the basketball court n hv our raft building session,n after that v were suppose 2 hv a rafting competition...haha,my group who started off quite ambitiously in the end...experienced somethin which the other groups had not...XD i nearly drowned when my leg was caught between the strings...*thanx qris+kiddo* n i shall call our raft...Poseidon...XD

-Cookout~!!Qris = chef of the day...^^played some games after that...n around 8.30pm,v put on ,lotsa insect repellant n long pants...for the highlight of the nite...-jungle walk-!!

-" remember ah,dun make noise...dun break anythin coz v r now going to 'other ppl's' place"

-after the "Very exciting yet tiring" walk, most of the guyz headed to the nearest mamak...coz there was a soccer match between ENGLAND n paraguay!! england won 1-0 ^^

-everyone was 2tired for the campfire+bbq so in the end only a few of us participated...haha,jz discovered tht kiddo's actually a great eater..XD v stayed up until 3am++ n sleep....

2nd dAy -11/06/2006
-those (includin me) who stayed up late couldn woke up in time for the followin mornin...v rather missed breakfast so that v hv an extra hour of sleep...XD

-body combat!!wtf...this was the thing that nearly make us whack that ding dong...
"biceps...triceps..."

-high ropes...which made most of us regret for doing all those stEEEEWPIT~ biceps n triceps thingy...the most scary thing i think...but very nice...what an experience~!!

-obstacle courses...which required lotsa team work...n oso actually showed who's the clumsy one(ME!!),who's the geng one...oh ya,v had n extra member during the course...boo-boo..XD by the time everythin's completed,everyone's dying for water...water~~~~~~

-lunch...drinkin air sirap was....HEAVENLY~oh ya,gotta mention the pink coloured chicken v had...XD

-Flying Fox!!!love it...~~

-the tired ppl headed towards the room n layed flat on the floor...zzZZz...~ the hyperactive ones...went canoeing...feihing!!!

-War gAme (by Qris) some ppl didn participate...tired bah...?anyway,v really had a great time in gettin ourselves wet...
"babi wern,lousy defender..XD"
"Ju-On,great runner..."
"su miin+ti3n,great judo move..XD"
"Qris,very gud actress har...=P"

anyway...nobody's taufu survived in the end...haha~

-after cleanin up ourselves..v packed our stuffs n headed to....Kajang Satay~~!!

-after ice breakers-
-tot it was easy...=P -
-up high...20ft i think-
-1st bento...- -cookout...the bananas+fish+sjian-

rebonding...XD

(x) long
(x) short
(x) coloured
(x) curled
(x) spiky

desperately wanted a change of hair style n i didn know what else 2try...so mum suggested rebonding, since ev1's crazy on curls now,getting rebonding will make me..."special" *quoted from mum...*

so here's how i look like few dayz after rebonding..da photo's kinda blur coz couldn seem 2get a decent shot..XD

sem break project 2 (contd..)

~top left-right: sleepin cat,cats playin doctor+patient XD
bottom: 1st day of school...^^

~a small part of the family...(",)~

yup,after spending almost the whole sem break doing this..i finally got my "catz family" poster (almost) done!will still need touch ups tho...n need 2 stitch everythin on another big piece of brown cloth,n try 2get a suitable frame from IKEA soon...haha~m on my way 2 complete another smaller project--> pei ling,hazel,vyeaw,andy,hsheong de burf-day gifts...hopez can get it done on time..XD

oh ya,picked up knitting recently too..still got lotsa room 4 improvement tho..hopefully will b able 2knit myself a scarf for scotland later on?thatz gonna be a HUGE project...

holidayz ending soon..will need 2go bk n regain my study momentum...oh yea,n senior's gonna b off coming wednesday 6/6/06...BESt-est for all of u ppl in scotland ya...managed 2 meet up with ah beng,joe...haha,933 again~2bad didn manage 2catch up with hot babe senior chin yee+yih yang...(wrong timing la wey...XD)

anyway,will gonna meet up again bah nex yr in scotland...as what i've told joe,"wont wanna c any1 of u in our batch ya"

www.colorquiz.com

got to know this site thru a fren'z blog..according 2her,it's unbelievable accurate wor..so i took the test lor...erm...ok la,there r SOME truth in it...was abit disappointed tho,coz doesn sound like yi jie (the one i used 2know la..XD)

share my results here la...gimme some opinion..

Your Existing Situation
Willing and adaptable. Only at peace when closely attached to a person, group, or organization on a which reliance can be placed.


Your Stress Sources
Wishes to be independent, unhampered, and free from any limitation or restriction, other than those which she imposes of herself or by her own choice and decision.


Your Restrained Characteristics
Feels she is receiving less than her share, but that she will have to conform and make the best of her situation.
Feels trapped in a distressing or uncomfortable situation and seeking some way of gaining relief. Able to achieve satisfaction from sexual activity.


Your Desired Objective
Longs for a tender and sympathetic bond and for a situation of idealized harmony. Has an imperative need for tenderness and affection. Susceptible to anything esthetic.


Your Actual Problem
Seeks to avoid criticism and to prevent restriction of her freedom to act, and to decide for herself by the exercise of great personal charm in her dealings with others.

Michelin Alert~!!

had been eating mum's cookin for the whole 4weeks of sem break...all my fav food she prepared,n she's non-stop feeding me...n buggin me 2finish up ALL the food+leftover...appetizer,main course,desserts...she's tryin 2make Michelin outta her daughter i think...n she's half way in succeeding....help~~!!
*quoted from mum:sending u bk 2imu in fat condition makes me happy..(-.-")*

Generation gap >_<

since young,i nvr really experienced generation gaps...until recently...wif the prescence of "2 pendatang haram",which make things worst...

i'm no longer young n ignorant,i can feel that dad loved me very much...he tried very hard to "befriend" me,to talk at the same level as me...not many fathers r able to do that,to actually put down their "great ego-ness" n try "pleasing" their children...for example,when i stayed up late sometimes to go online,he will actually accompany me indirectly by sitting infront of the tv at the living room,which often he'll fall asleep...i know dad loves me..i REALLY DO!!but then sometimes,what dad said/do makes me wonder...whether to laugh or to cry...things said n done alwayz seemed to land on the wrong time,n the wrong place,which often made me more annoyed than pleased..in the end,i often hurt his feelings...n regreted after that...

being the eldest in the family,dad has the character of sacrificing his own desire in order to please others...but sometimes,some lousy fellas like to take things for granted..as if the whole world owe her somethin...wtf...all this tend to make ppl who loved him upset...which often, is mum...

frankly,d prescence of the "pendatang haram" recently really made things worst..it upsets mum,it upsets me...n dad gets upset as well...being the unwelcome one,i think the "pendatang haram" felt uneasy as well..but the pendatang's lousy "care-taker" is enjoying her life now somewhere north...really...useless fella!i mean,who on earth r they to come here interfering our peaceful lifes?!mum's holiday jz started,n i think she really needs a break...dad's kinda stress bcoz of work 2..n i think that f*ckin fella should giv my dad a break too!darned angry with them..really wanted 2 phone up n scold the hell out of her~!!to make things worst,the pendatang haram,being pendatang themselves,couldn b bother 2behave n take care of themselves...what the heck...UR MOTHER NEVER TEACH U AH? (no,thatz eactly what their mother taught them...)

so in the end,this holiday turned up side down...mum,who r suppose 2relax..bcome more stressful...n dad,knowin that v r not happy with the prescence of the "pendatang haram",but nevertheless,love+felt responsible towards the "pendatang haram"..made him serba salah,n super sensitive when mum n me joked bout the "pendatang haram"..all this eventually affect our relationships...

everythin seemed to widen the gap between dad n me...im very upset with it...n i'm also being kinda passive infront of dad n the "pendatang haram" now...well,i guess "less talking,less mistakes"?

for now,i jz wished that the "pendatang haram" will leave...n somethin..SOMETHIN?SOMEONE? PLEASE enlighten their "Care-taker"...i mean...GET THE HELL OUTTA OUR LIVES,FOR GOD SAKE!

feelin really bad for hurtin daddy...Happy Father's day,daddy.

siamese twins..-.-"

-B.A.N.A.N.A. siamese twins: sammy+danny-

today,mum bought my favorite fruits again..B.A.N.A.N.A rox!yum...

was half way helping mum with our lunch..nothin2do coz was waiting the meat 2get cooked,so i start attackin the bunch of banana when i saw...

"Mummmmiiiiieee!!!c...twins!"

sem break project 2...

-2nd piece:half done...-
-my starting piece: suppose 2b a cat..(-.-")-

-mum's+my(pendatang haram) work place-

sin nen came 2me few dayz ago,asking me 2teach her how 2 stitch..well,it seems like she hv somethin+someone in mind...XD taught her a few basic stuff that i know...chain stitch,blanket stitch,cross stitch..etc. the end result was quite satisfactory...good job gurl~!hopez "he" likes it ya...haha~the stitchin bug somehow influenced her fren,pei ing...so she joined in yesterday..i think she's tryin 2 make somethin for her brother?man...how i wished i hv a brother too...=)

n yup..i finally started my 2nd sem break project 2...sin nen was a catalyst 2it,n my laziness was an inhibitor...muahaha~finally,by increasing the concentration of the catalyst,the process proceed...in a slow rate XD

actually was suppose 2make little belated bday gifts for pei ling (5/5),vyeaw(30/4),hazel(5/5),andy(15/5)..but then,still no inspiration...yet..T_T

in the process of makin a poster,using catz as the theme...coz "catz" played a quite significant role in my life...=) i think if i were 2decrease the concentration of inhibitor,n add some significant amount of activator(hardworking-ness),will b able 2finish it real soon...n plez~can someone gimme some ideaz what2do for the belated bday gifts?XD

sem break project 1...

was wondering how i'll spend my 5 weeks left of holidayz when Mr Gordon stepped in...muahaha~he introduced me 2 this HK series,which he seemed 2b very addicted to...so..yup,my 1st project for this sem break's to finish this series...if i'm not mistaken it's called "The Last Breakthrough"...tho it doesn really seem 2connect with its name in mandarin...hmm..anyone?any idea?
well,basically the drama's about a group of very dedicated doctors (maybe this explains y gordon's like it so much?)and health professionals..who r both talented n caring...goes far beyond what normal doctors will do...well,i'm kinda addicted to the series now..which cause my mum 2 constantly nag on me 4spending hours n hours infront of the notebook,watchin the drama...

"yi jie ar,u gonna spoil ur eyes la..."
"hoiyo,go bathe n sleep d la..very late liao..."
"yi jie ar,dun watch ed la..."

n the list goes on......XD

but dunno y..although i like it very much,i think the drama's a bit 2 idealistic...?maybe up till now,doctors i encountered are still the "very normal" kind...u know,d "hi,whatz ur problem?>>let me c...>>very short explaination>>bye>>medication+payment" kind...

sometimes it just made me wonder...y every year,this time...many ppl will do whatever they can,just to enter medical school...what actually cause this "Craze" 2occur?r they really willing 2 care?love?or izzit plain glamour+money...?i think doing medicine n hoping 2graduate n work as a doctor itsn't only about dedication+glamour...choose 2b a doctor,itsn't so simple...2those frenz who chose 2do medicine...i salute u!n yea,hope u made the correct choice..n graduate 2b a very good doctor...

oops,i bet my pharmacy batchmates gonna curse me 4that d...haha,pharmacy not bad also la...like what a few of my medical frenz said "pharmacy tougher than medicine ar..."haha...anyway,pharmacy or medical,i think both r interconnected...n well,v r a happy family together...like my "vista gang"...mixture of medical n pharmacy mar...muahaha~wern+yen..*winkz*

hmm...seemed like the HK series n d newspaper r making me think 2much...XD
lunch time...signing off....>_<

sUrfin...bRowsin...

yup,m bk at my good old hometown....
yup again,i online-ing...
muahaha...finally done somethin 2the internet connection here...n whoa-lah,here i m...bloggin~
oh ya,thanx wei meng for teachin me 2do the dial up thing ya...my IT skills really sux..XD

yet 2get my own notebook tho...using mum's compaq..kinda love it since it's new...n i'm IT blind..haha...

nothin much 2say for now...will b posting up somethin...soon...yet...soon...haha~
so gonna enjoy my holidayz...XD

6 weeks of break~!

after 2weeks of studyin like a dog...3 weeks of hell life...finally~!
sem 3 seemed 2 end fast...one moment,v jz came bk from sem2 sem break...with seniors bz with their sem5...n now...sem3 ended,senior's gone...
had lunch in food ave today,imu seemed 2b awfully quiet...yea,imu's gonna b quiet for a while...
missed this sem's class trip 2redang...muahaha~went shopping with wern n bao...bought fren's present...hope they like it very much...=) for those who r in KK now...hope u guyz r able 2get ur asses up mount kinabalu..XD

p105 ppl will b holiday-ing for the nex 6weeks...
p106 juniors will b bz preparing for their finals...
b105 pseudo-juniors will b havin their study breaks-finals-sem break...

p104 will no longer b in imu...will b leavin for scotland strathclyde......

yea,imu will b quiet for awhile....nvm~pharmacy ah bengz will b back!!muahaha....

i'll b bk...after 6weeks....stupid electrician didn connect my internet line properly during renovation...wont b online-ing bk in good ole lovely.....SITIAWAN

invisible...

以为自己看开了。。。是时候了吧。。。唉！
从开始到现在，我都是蚂蚁。。。这我很清楚！但很无奈，我依然无法控制我自己。。。明明知道了，但还犯。。。很没用吧？
如果是因为不好的性格。。。我还可以改。。。但是。。。唉！不能成为实力派，也不能成为偶像派。。。这次我彻底的输了。。。
怡洁，是时候放弃了！
他的出现，他的“没看到”。。。我真的受伤了。

07052006..bUkit jAlil StAdiUm is sUre 2eXplOde!

Hotlink promo picture..
dAvid tAo...the gReatest leap 2005

finally...after 2yrs of waiting...DAVID TAO's BACK!!i'm sure that his 2nd upcoming concert's gonna b a BLAST...muahaha~if nothin goes wrong,i'm SURE 2go!i'm broke....but who cares?haha...

seriously hoped that the accident didn cause any big injuries 2 him la...DAVID TAO,SEE YOU IN BUKIT JALIL !

piCtureZ...

with dArRen...
with ball president...-khang hee- not bad lookin eh...
tAble 39...
with big big fella...-hEndriCk-
diplococcus with a coccus wannabe..-vyuen+smiin-

tHe bAll...

and v were suppose 2go home coz our feet was aching like hell...XD
best dressed ppl...with the bestest dressed male...-chee yuan-
with the perfect couple...-chris+chris- sweet~
wedding dinner?-edmond+sui lin-
fishes reunite~!
with senior philip...gonna miss ur ah-beng-ism~!
with su miin...
the bridge between medical n pharmacy...-yenV+wern+gOrdon-

well,IMU ball was held last saturday at JW Marriott KL...overall,the experience was nice...got 2c everyone properly dressed up...wont b writing much here...photoz tell everythin la ya...=)

Staphylococcus aureus...or...E.coli?Neisseria?

Pseudomonas aeruginosa

had our microbiology practical exam this morning...i think a few of my frenz faced some problems in identifying the microorganisms they got...i think even differenciating between Gram -ve n Gram +ve is tough for their case...n talking bout differenciating between coccus n bacillus...hmm~just hope that they get it correct lah...but then,my frenz have different answers?if one is correct,that me the other fren's will b wrong...sob~

according to Mr.Khalid,identification dun carry marks...yea well,i guess marks r not the onli thing that matters...?imagine spending stressful time doing Gram staining n identification tests...n in the end,didn get the correct identity of the microorganisms...!(#&$#^!!! rite?

well, as for me,tho experienced some confusions in Oxidase test+my poor technique in using the microscope...things were quite smooth..thank God!was quite relieved when i saw the Centrimide agar on my bench...i was like..."I know U!Pseudomonas aeruginosa!"
the miroorganism given to me showed resistance onli to 1 antibiotic...so yea,i onli needed 2 measure the zone of inhibition for it...completed my identification quite early..so i repeated the Oxidase test again...n looked at the bacteria under the microscope again...to confirm.yup!

• growth on centrimide agar.
• rods.->bacillus
• stained red.->Gram -ve
• pallisade arrangement. (clever Phuay Fhern reminded me yesterday...Thanx!!) =)
• +ve result for oxidase test.
• clinical case given:respiratory problem

my hypothesis: Pseudomonas aeruginosa

my fingers r still crossed...so hope i get things correct!

my 1st piece from FCUK!

kinda impressed by my bravery...everyone r in the midst of stress+sleepless nites...but me n wern actually went shopping at 1-utama yesterday...got our Ball Dress!!yea...~!wern's was quite a bargain...Rm189-->Rm89?!what the heck..jealous man!hmm...i got mine from FCUK..haha~as for the price..well...auntie said hor...可以喝喜酒的时候穿,贵一点不用紧啦...XD actually this is my 1st time to actually shop for a formal dress lor...since i hv a super-mum who can actually produce nice stuf from a piece of Rm3.00 worth of fabric...but this time,super-mum's sick so...

as to how wern's n my dress look like...i guess i wont b posting the pic here...haha~curious?GO TO IMU BALL!<--quoted from "E=MC2" (evelyn = mong cha cha) XD

somethin worth 2share...=)

was listening to the radio fm98.8 last nite..n i heard somethin that i think it's kinda meaningful..wish 2share with u guyz...=)


恋爱的人会变得容易满足。。。会因为他/她的一些小动作而傻笑了一整个下午，会因简简单单的豆浆油条而开心了一个周末。。。会为了要他/她给自己一个拥抱而扁嘴，会撒娇。。。

这一切一切，是否很熟悉呢？恋爱过+没恋爱过。。。因为这一切一切，也曾在童年的时候有过。。。

恋爱=童真？

但是人也应该象小孩一样，一但在成长的过程中跌倒。。。哭过了，要勇敢的爬起来，继续前进！因为也只有跌过，痛过，哭过的人，才会长大！

sTresS~

Pharmaceutical microbiology...Physical pharmacy...Biopharmacy...Fundamental pharmacology... life is starting to b stressful recently...wif lotsa deadlines n class tests coming up...a gang of us actually stayed in the library last nite till 10pm...muahaha~v actually beat "The Library Permanent Furnitures" for the 1st time! actually v didn really study much la i think...

+/- 5pm: entered library
5.30-6pm: felt hungry..n with the influence of Bpharm juniors, v went to the cafeteria for "tea break"...XD ended up with roti canai+super cold dahl sauce...ewW~
6pm..: start k-ing books in the library...but didn do much...didn last long oso..XD
7pm++: dinner in food ave!
8.30pm: k-ing books in the library again...+chatting...+lepaking...+online-ing...sigh~

10pm: balik rumah....XD

a point to note tho...the Bpharm juniorz seemed to b super bz n super stress with their work...wanna find them?just drop by library anytime...u'll spot a few of them there...sigh~ n v r suppose 2b the seniors...XD

03032006

date: 03-03-2006
time: 18.30pm
location:CAL lab of the library,IMU bukit jalil.

suppose 2reach sitiawan by now if i go bk...sigh~just finished studyin biopharmacy n felt a bit excited...tho i couldn really recall those structures i memorize...nvm,will revise it bk again b4 d test...^^ drug design isn't that bad after all eh...XD

feelin excited,couldn really concentrate on my nex target...Microbio...so decided to lepak in the computer lab again..tho the stench here's kinda bad..ewWw~anyway,was browsing thru my frenz list in friendster without any direction...haha~just discovered tht 2frenz of mine actually r already "in a relationship"..=) my best wishes to u guyz ya...

today's M106 orientation's highlight...haha,wasn expecting Noris to participate in the orientation at 1st...but now,he's actually one of the IMCC!!kudoZ dude...i know u gonna b popular in IMU!XD

kinda tired today...but felt kinda normal..today's P104 seniors' last day of sem5...their study break's gonna start nex wk...followed by their EOS n their sem break...n their flight to Strathclyde...sure gonna miss them all...but i hope i wont b seeing u ppl around in my class during my sem 5 ya!haha...all the best!
*chin yee*joe*yih yang*philip*samuel*pou wee*jenny*zhi yong*
n the other P104 seniors i know...Love u guyz deep deep!till v meet again......

oh ya..n to the fella who's tryin desperately to concentrate on the well-known boring M'sian Law..kampateh oso ya..haha~dun evday say no mood no mood la...nex time need u 2b my lawyer de la...XD

coming weekend's gonna b a busy 1 i guess...but i seriously hope i will b able 2do some serious studyin ler...

-siMpLe-

《爱很简单》 -dAv tAo-

忘了是怎么开始　也许就是对你　有一种感觉
忽然间发现自己　已深深爱上你　真的很简单

爱的地暗天黑都已无所谓　是是非非无法抉择 喔~~
没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随　那个疯狂的人是我　喔~~

I LOVE U 无法不爱你 BABY 说你也爱我
I LOVE U 永远不愿意 BABY 失去你

不可能更快乐　只要能在一起　做什么都可以
虽然　世界变个不停　用最真诚的心　让爱变的简单

I LOVE U 一直在这里　BABY　一直在爱你 Oh ya~
I LOVE U　(yes I do)　永远都不放弃　这爱你的权利
如果你还有一些困惑 Oh No 请贴著我的心倾听
听我说著　爱你 (yes I do) 我爱你

tO accept...or nOt to accept?

the doubts in religion has already been with me for quite sometime...my maternal family's christian...n since i grew up there,i attended a methodist kindergarden+church sunday school,i proudly pronounced myself as a "christian".i did what the pastor told me 2 do...->always pray when u face problems,be good to the ppl around u,Lord Jesus Christ cleanses all my sins with His precious blood...as long as i BELIEVE in Him...however,as a kid...i dun really understand what izzit all about,let alone asking questions n havin doubts...i was active in church...until i reached the age of 14.

being a rebelious "only child",i started questioning bout things around me..i was bz with music n ballet classes during the weekends...so i kinda "quit" going 2 church...

now 20,i'm still questioning bout the existance of God...is christianity real?my paternal family's buddhist,my closest frenz r buddhists...the stuff in buddhism r acceptable 2me too...dunno y,i felt more at ease when i'm with my buddhist frenz...maybe the christians i met r the black sheeps among all..?i'm full of questions regarding religions...ppl seemed 2b offended when i ask them bout their religions...both christianity n buddhism i mean...

yup,i'm still in doubt...i goes to church,goes to temple as well...i still consider myself a christian,but i seriously need some answers on this...=) yea,i admit that i'm a problem+curious person...=P

Aida just gave me this website..n i think it's quite meaningful...tho it's kinda long...check it out if u're free...
http://www.gogeneration.com/v5iss1/good-life.htm

是，我的确有鬼。。。

突然喜欢上《理想情人》，让朋友对我有所怀疑。。。昨晚上重复听了好多遍。。。好多画面在脑海里出现。。。

喜欢看你走路充满自信
说话时候你的专注眼神
温柔的表情笑容里的天真

雯，我的确有鬼。。。但我相信我很快就会回复正常。。。你之前也有很喜欢过这首歌吧？但我知道，你会比我幸福。。。=)

将会想念他的影子吧。。。还有他很傻的笑声。。。祝福你，真的!

Who's your iDeal partNer?

杨丞琳 <<理想情人>>

穿上洋装看着手表
时间快到心碰碰的跳
和你的第一次约会来临了

金色的阳光洒满人行道
换了新唇膏把头发弄好
要你看到我的好
喜欢看你走路充满自信
说话时候你的专注眼神
温柔的表情笑容里的天真
我相信找不到有比你更好的人
你心里理想情人是几分
是否也会有我的份
好想知道你的100分
会给怎样的人
亲爱的你不要再陌生
增加我戏份
我想问亲爱的你把感情升等
朋友变成情人
可不可以告诉我标准
不要让我一直等
听着那时间滴答的走
对街的你在点头
好像一个梦渐渐走到我前头
好想知道你的100分
会给怎样的人
亲爱的你不要再陌生
增加我戏份
我想问亲爱的你把感情升等
朋友变成情人
可不可以告诉我标准
不要让我一直等

continue...

-Oshkar WORST actor-
winner: some malay fella..dunno what name

reason:
was darn tired after the whole week of orientation..i was still in bed when i heard door bell..i thought it was lu yi..so i drag myself up to answer the door..it was this malay guy...below r a summary of our conversation...

him: (broken english) hi miss,is u the tenant of this house?
me: (blur) huh?what?er...no,the tenant's not in...

him:oh..nvm,i m doing a survey miss..can miss help me?
me: yea..sure...(reluctantly)

him:miss,kita akan buka satu hypermarket miss...setuju tak?
me:yea..setuju..

(and the Q+A sessions continued for almost 5 minutes...)

him: !$^%*(*^ (he mumbled somethin bout fillin up forms...)
me: okay...sure..(i dont really trust him,so i gave him fake info..)

suddenly...

him: (shouting) WAH MISS!u sure ini betul ar?(pointing to my IC number) wah mis...miss nasib baik lah miss...miss baru aje dapat sebuah kereta miss...wah miss...bla~bla~
me:(damn pissed off by now but decided to join in) OH YA AR?wah....really ar?but i'm not interested wor...haha~bye!

him:hey miss..serious ar miss....bla~

(i went in to the house n closed the door...back to sleep)
-the end-

"and the award for worst actor+actress this yr goes to...

-Oshkar year 2006 WORST actress-
winner: the b*tch among the juniors...

reasons:
1. day 3-cross dressing day..this b*tch didn dress along with her other group members..rather,she choose 2 dress normally n sat together with the other seniors...reason? "I'm not feelin well leh..."

2. day 4-detective games..this b*tch was aching + having allergies almost every single part of her body...she nearly scared everyone to death at my game station...well,the story goes like this...her group didn reach the threshold v set,so everyone had to be punished.she didn mention anythin bout allergies n stuff..n she joined everyone for punishment...when suddenly..."MY EYE!MY EYE! (started crying...waah~~) i just had eye surgery...bla~bla~(her "innocent" OO and other b*tches started shoutin n scolding)..v didn know,so everyone got panicked n start rising her eyes with our very own DRINKING water...damn!should hv rinse her eye with concentrated HCl!

3. day5-telematch+tunnel...this b*tch didn join in for telematch this time..reason?EYE OPERATION lor...wat else?fine...all the seniors actually plan to sabo this b*tch during the highlight of the nite when suddenly...this b*tch started suffocating n fainted!reason?allergic to flour wor...everyone knew she was faking but still...v had no choice but to accompany her la..sent her to HUKM...the best part was..she actually remembered to remind us to give back "Joe's shirt" when she was suffocated to near death...?!walau..as a junior,who on earth will as a grand-senior for help?!suffocation didn kill this b*tch's bitchiness...as long as u r male,she'll grab u...i wonder if she'll grab a male dog...since they r of same species...(man..i think even a b*tch is not as bitchy as her la...) okay..fine...off to HUKM...when our 1st aiders thought they finally will hv a peace of mind...this b*tch is back! n guess what...."i'm okay!(bitchily)" f*ck!what kinda creature is this...!

4. day6-dinner...finally,this b*tch can rest,no need to act...coz no dirty work involved today mar..no drama,still got bitchiness leh...long story lah...one word tells everything..."BITCH!"

-untitled-

it's tough...yea...PMS+fatigue makes everything tougher...but then,the thoughts of frenz around made me feel better...as i'm far better compare 2 all of them..yea,everyone's havin a tough time recently...

he's leaving.
this issue is already enuf 2 put a toll on me...i'm trying 2let go...i really tried,n still trying...but then,ppl around me just keep on bugging me on the issue of him going after gurl A,gurl B..etc..etc~the main reason for me being upset is bcoz i know v wont stand a chance in starting a relationship...n i guess he is good enuf for any gurl he wants...as i hv told them,he hav the ABILITY and QUALITY...just lack of some INTENTION and CONFIDENCE..i dun blame my frenz coz they dunno my feelings towards him...yea,nobody knows.my fault.God...i CAN'T possibly let him/them know!

seriously,i dunno what i'm trying 2 do now..i know there wont b any future between us..so naturally,i just gotta let go...i HAVE TO let go...its a way of self-defence...rite?if u know u cant win the game...surrender! i can't...i just cant...

not seeing him around will only not make me forget him...but will only make me miss him more...(yes,this sounds gross..) doesn sound like hu yi jie rite?yea...i can't blieve it myself 2...if it's already like this now,what will happen when he leave later?wont b seeing him around...wont b seeing him...for at least 2yrs!will this help in solving my problem then...?i guess i sure gonna miss his laughter eh?

i LIKE him...n yes,i need sometime 2 digest my feelings...hope i'll b able 2 get rid of it when i sh*t,if not tomoro morning...soon...XD

p1/06 Orientation?

yup...had been bz with the junior's orientation since monday...or was it the p105 orientation instead?haha...the seniors seemed 2b enjoying more than the juniors...everyone of us were like ss-ing...anyway,it was quite fun...everyone's devilish side kinda emerge la...XD

however,a few of the seniors (including me) encountered some of the black sheeps who r rude...cant they pay some respect 2 their seniors?despite these minorities,most of the juniors r fun..i guess they just need time 2 warm up a bit?cheer ppl...cheer!2 a few guyz who r sporting enuf 2 dress in female outfit n behaved like a b*tch...kudoZ!

today's the 4th day of orientation....2 more dayz 2go...kampade juniors n seniors!

P1/06 Orientation
Basic Training
Only the Strongest survived \(^^)/

case studies of a PROFESSOR...<-sao pei la~~

gotta wake up at 8am today bcoz of pharmacology class...n guess what?the class ended at 10pm instead of 12pm...damn~!having insomnia for the 1st time last nite...n man...i feel like shit now

seriously...what kinda professor is that..talking bout Mr.david chong's professionalism...this particular dun even know what is starting+ending on time...mention bout "Dedicated lecturers v hav in pharmacy"...*laughin sacarstically* i think the only most dedicated lecturer here is david chong himself la....XD

well...back 2d professor story....

case 1:
i was under her for the foundation pharmacy-migraine last yr...n everytime i went 2c her for advice on my draft..she'll go.."erm..ok ok...ya..ya..."i doubt she "processed" what i had asked+said 2her...it seemed like she hv ants in her pants everytime...(-.-")

case 2:
oh ya...foundation pharmacy essay...this particular professor...kononnya VERY experienced+dedicated la...dun even know when was d deadline for the essay...she made a hell out of our lives~rush+rush+rush...when everythin was done,she said"oh..i didn know the deadline was nex yr...erm..u guyz take ur time 2do la har...."

case3:
n foundation pharmacy essay again...this PARTICULAR professor..made a fuss on somethin called "vancouver convention"...v went up n down searchin for this particular thing...v got lotsa different info(from the net,from mr.david,from seniors...) v went 2her 2confirm our findings n the only thing she said was "go n find out urself..." HECK~! when i finally made up my mind n decided to follow the guides given by mr.david......Joe(senior) : 哪里是这样的？哪里有这样简单？你做错了啦！！！<-it was during the nite b4 the deadline....T.T

case 4:
Fundamental Pharmacology Wet Lab 1
GROUP B1-B2 :YPN

Argh~~~!!!i was like....-DOOMED-
i went in 2d lab...well,everyone was nervous coz if anythin went wrong,v wont b able 2go home in time..bad luck = +/- 6pm...worst luck = +/- 7pm...as for my group...our stuff went on pretty well..our dear ileum tissue was cooperative...until this PARTICULAR professor came 2us...she doesn seemed 2 know her stuff well but she insisted in changing stuff (that were already set properly for us by the lab assistant)...in d end?v had 2 repeat a few steps..but the story didn end here.......

at 5.00pm...

v were almost done with our stuf,so v wanted 2 look out for this particular professor to check on it...n SHE WAS GONE!according 2 my one of my batchmate...she was already gone long time ago...walau-eh~left b4 all of us r done?!需不需要这样准时放工啊，教授？！

case 5:
so..this morning was the analysis of data session...she was rushin n rushin AGAIN..(i guess d ants had got their way up into her pants again...?) 9pm-12pm...this was suppose 2b the slot for us...n this PARTICULAR PROFESSOR said somethin like this...AGAIN!-->"eh..u all continue 2do lah ok?discuss among ur members YA...i hav an appointment with someone..." our work was delayed bcoz of her ignorance...again!
the session ended around 10am...n she left long b4 this...

case studies to be continued...

noisy pharm guyZ in CAL Lab?think again...

this had been quite a big issue in IMU not long ago...thanx 2 some medical nerd who thinks he dad owned the the school....but then,i think this fella ought 2 stay in the cal lab more often b4 giving such comments...
recently,i had been in the cal lab often 2 prepare my microbiology slides n surf d net...n guess what?the cal lab was darned noisy...yup,this includes the cal lab IN THE LIBRARY...n NOPE,their tag is not green...(if its not green,then?)
i'm in the cal lab now...n the same gang of ppl is makin lotsa noise again...man...that gurl is such a b*tch...

lost~

seriously need some directions now...yes,NOW!!
i had thought being courageous is one of the clue in relationship 2 yrs ago..but i guess my courage in dealing with it diminished when things ended "pre-maturely"...

the loss in courage didn bother me...until now...-today-

i thought it wont bother me...i thought i just need 2 avoid n everythin'll b fine...
*kinda hard 2type stuf when i'm tryin not 2make things obvious XD*

met him today,didn hv any conversation...but then..i couldn concentrate after that...not at all.
stuff about him just played in my mind non-stop,it made me upset...i felt like screamin in the lecture hall!

actually both of us weren't close...v dun really talked,no seriously talking la i mean...the things v shared is jokes,jokes...n jokes...but somehow......argh~whtz so special bout him anyway?i had been asking myself many times...but the answer is still unknown.

mum advised me not 2 think 2much...in short,forget bout him.yeah...being courageous is a no no...bad experience XD
despite mum's advice,i juz couldn help but continue 2 think...n continue 2 admire...n love...perhaps?nah..."like" is a better word

perhaps if i'm good lookin or i'm fragile....or suffer from constant migraine XD...or suffer from bad menses pain....stuff wont be like this?XD

i sound so pathetic lah wey....XD

anyway,if u happened 2b readin this until this far...just forget whatever i crapped okay...n DON'T ask question...no,i wont tell u who's HE

jUnioR-preSent! sEnior-AbsEnt?!!

P1/06's in!! i guess imu dun really encourage students to celebrate Valentine's...this yr's installation of new intake is again...Valentine's day....eve.

saw quite a number of new faces in the campus...*innocent*lost*damn formal lookin!* muahaha..makes me think of a yr ago...when i just entered IMU as a junior....now P1/05 is officially upgraded to SENIOR!!ngek~ngek~ngek~

however...didn c a single P1/04 seniors around...i guess v won't be seeing them often in the campus ed...gonna miss them...*devilish*damn selekeh lookin!*ah beng-ism rox!*

Valentine's tomorrow...hmm...

for the P1/06 students..." we survived,can u?"
for the p1/04 seniors..."keep up the ah-beng-ism!"

(-.-")

had been told to check out the imu forum lately...damn farnie...high mentality+intelligence medical students actually r firing at a few of my seniors regarding some tiny miny stuff--> being noisy in the computer lab...really "zha dao!"
i mean...whatz wrong making noise in the computer lab?there's alwayz THE LIBRARY for u to study...well,i guess that fella just couldn help but being nerdy..feeling jealous coz v r havin much more fun compare 2 u medical ppl?muahaha...
i guess this case will worsen the gap n the fire between medical n pharmacy...letz not make things worse just bcoz of some jealous+immature fella...i mean...medical student onli mar?y so "action"?!
-STUDIOUS PEOPLE DIE YOUNG-
quoted from p1/05 multiply page

for the seniors...keep up ur ah beng-lism...我撑你！！

a snap shot with MISS kim jae won...XD

5th of February...whole gang of us went 2conquer yeang wee's house after a sumptous meal at sri petaling...n guess what?v met korean star kim jae won 金在沅 (female version) at the bus stop infront of hotel sri petaling...!!muahaha...有图为证！

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lactic acid accumulation...!!!

couldn really walked properly whole day...the question of "how 2 get up from bed?" actually crossed my mind the moment i was awaken by my alarm...i practically had 2 crawl up...thanx to the taekwondo training on tuesday...n badminton session with meng,wern,su miin, pei ling n kah yee...extreme muscle ache...
n guess what?i still managed to struggle up n down the non-moving escalator of IMU,never ending stairs of the sri petaling+hang tuah+bukit bintang LRT n Monorail stations..n went shopping in lot10(finally got myself a pair of cny pants)...muahaha~damn proud of myself...XD
got my cny pants..still got tops to go...haha~gonna go topless this cny i guess..=P

thoughts of going bk home (city-number 1) actually excites me...weird?haha...lookin forward 2c my house...n my frenz..=)

its ed 2.15am...still at wern's place...cny mood,eating mandarin oranges+biscuits+sweets...
hopes my frenz will have a fantastic cny this coming week..wont b blogging for the whole next week... hope everyone will b a brand new+better person this coming new yr...(dog yr!) gotta work like a dog this sem...^^

HAPPIE CHINESE NEW YEAR!

GONG XI FA CHAI!

UCSI 03-04 A-level yr2005 gathering...

haha...the gathering was long time ago lah..but only now i'm posting up pictures....(no heart o...) anyway,the gathering was at evan's place<-our usual lepak place...it was okay although there was some yucky,unfresh stuff from Giant...=P

i think so far...u guyz r the gang of ppl that i contact least lo...really really sorry ar...聚会需要天时，地利，人和　嘛！anyway,love u guyz lotz ya...miz the moments v had during a-levels...miz Ms. Mabel's biology lectures...haha,i know u guyz dun...^^

Joe Quah,where the heck is ur gay partner?!

had been searching Joe's gay partner since this morning...sadly...no news till now...5.05pm~
need his confirmation on my grant form la...sigh~yea,maybe i should pass it 2joe instead coz they will sure meet each other everynite mar...rite joe? XD

hope that he'll get the form ready by tomorrow la...sigh~desperately need the form...wanna get my money!have been applying the grant since 2003.....T_T

p/s: the names n some of the story lines had been altered for confidential purposes..XD

betrayal

had insomnia last nite...gotta wake up at 7am this morning for 8am lecture on microbiology (-.-")

been thinkin over stuff my fren had told me last nite through the phone...it was a long phone call but it stayed in my mind all nite...thanx Soon,for defending for me..tho i dun even know myself well.

yup,i was upset...

it wasn bcoz a fella had talked bad infront of my fren bout our past relationship..neither bcoz someone had bad-mouthed me...it was simply bcoz people i called "frenz" actually choose 2 talked bad behind my back instead of confronted me regarding my problem...was it plain betrayal?or was it a sabotage?if yes..then u succeeded,coz i'm hurt.

i dun wanna ask who s/he is...i fear,i can't accept betrayal...but i choose 2 accept the stuff they had said about me n try 2improve...yes,i really tried 2improve myself.frenz out there,if along the way i happened 2 hurt u...sorry.

it'll b very unfair 2 those sincere frenz who loved me out there now... coz i kinda lose trust towards people as more betrayal come into my way...one is enough.

i'll need time 2recover.sorry...

Memories of our own...P105 gatherin'

-me n celupar ti3n-
back: wern, me, yannee,fish

front:joey

-from left: fish,vyeaw,wern-
-meng,su miin,me,wern,fish-

-the flowerZ...XD-

02' 5Sd class gathering...

hwei cheng's sms last nite reminded me of the gathering again...ahaha~the atmosphere was kinda cold at 1st..makes me think of the 1st day i enter IMU-->taylor-ian mix wif taylor-ian, tarc-ian mix with tarc-ian...only.v kinda gang up...as usual.haha..i think a few of us were kinda disappointed...but eventually,a gang of us had quite a fun time playin "psSs game" while trying hard 2 gulp down d leftover...
overall,i think it was quite an effort put in by my frenz...kudoZ everyone!

left: circlez of friends...-friendship forever-

*to those who had made this happened..good work n love u guyz lotZ!
*to those who didn "enjoy" the effort put in by our fellow frenZ...thanx for being there anyway n love u guyz 2 =)
*to those who didn show their face...hahaha~u guyz seriously missed out alot!

p/s: miss the badminton session v had together,mates!lookin forward 2c u guyz during cny!


left: eng chuan, kwong seng n me..

just plain bored...

basically...i'm just tryin out lah...haha~didn know exactly how 2 post picture on the blog..n this is my 1st time succeeding somethin by reading on the "help" part!muahaha...

some simple intro here lah..coz gotta get my ass off the chair in CAL lab n go LT1 for another boring lecture...

this picture here...is my chi muiZ in IMU lah..erm..the lame queen is the gurl behind...n the gurl bside me is fish..n guess what?i'm N-E-R-D

i LOVE bookZ...*muakx*

thatz all...good afternoon Dr. Er!

afternoon at ss12...-bored-

at aunt's house now..suppose 2go shopping n was lookin forward 2 a trip 2 my favorite shopping spot-1 utama...but sadly,my great future fashion designer cousin got "many assignments" 2finish...so v just gotta cancel the idea...haih~if i were 2 know earlier,i will just take the scholarship form n follow my fellow mei qis' to mid valley..

so...i'm here now...waiting the page 2 load..(sad..no stremyx) while tryin 2figure out how 2play the computer's solitare..XD o'll b joinin my cousin brother for ps2 ed if it interests me...but sadly,i still holds the record of falling asleep while playin ps2...unbelievable?believe it...

sigh~haven't get myself a proper chinese new yr attire...haha~n cny is a week from now..hmm...i guess i'm gettin old eh?coz old ppl normally dun buy new clothes for cny anymore...gosh~even my grandma has a chinese new yr shirt..
kinda lookin forward 2go bk sitiawan now..coz mum said..."U'll be having an IKEA look alike room!"muahaha...finally,the renovation has ended..quoted from my good ole opponent vyeaw:"ur father wanna build a castle izzit?!"
this big renovation project has cost me somethin though...mum said"gotta keep the grant for Strathclyde..coz the money allocated previously has already been used for the house" sigh~i tot of getting myself a cool laptop using the grant..dun dare 2ask for one now...spending another big amount will freak my dad out...so i guess i just gotta b patient...n the bed+sofa v saw in IKEA...T_T

so it's spending..spending...spending...~n to poor poor daddy,it's earn money,earn money..EARN money! (hmm..does that sound familiar?)

grant...CONFIRM!!

yup,the STARR foundation has finally confirm my grant..=) i think i'll get somethin for those who had helped me in it lah..whoa,the lists kinda long...
*my dad-for making all this happen..
*my mum-for guidance
*the clerks in SJKC chung cheng-for helping me fillin up forms..using typewrittes..XD
*Mr tan kee keat,Dr Yap-for writing about "the great hu yi jie"..n also certify tonnes of my duplicated certificates
*Mdm lim siew lean-for writing about "the great hu yi jie"
*Mdm lim siew eang-for writing bout "the great hu yi jie"..again...
*Ms mabel-for writing yet another story of "the great hu yi jie"
n not forgetting...
*coolcat xtreme@kelvin-for teaching me how 2 write "the great hu yi jie"...in a not-so obvious way...XD
*n for those who i accidently forgot 2mention...SORRY~n THANX alot!!

LOVE U GUYZ LOTZ...*muakx*

the same ole problem...

ha~ha~ha~what happened 2me recently?!
had been thinkin bout "the same ole problem"again...i guess it's some bad influence from "the ppl" around me huh...XD

i guess to him, i'm just a tiny-winy character...a normal,tomboy-ish fren *full stop* actually this had been bothering me when i got 2know him...i tot it was just some liking someone will feel towards an "impressive,nearly perfect person"...but then recently...things changed.i realised that i didn forget,rather i had chosen 2run away.

whenever my frenz tell me "i know u well..etc etc..",i will just laugh...coz 20yrs,i still dun understand myself.does my past experience play a part in this...?i was brave b4 this...or izzit just plain "rendah diri"?i mean...he is perfect in every part. yea..nobody's perfect.but God had made a mistake when He created him.

by not seeing him often enough...will it solve my problem?i know it's running away once again but i think i'm quite confident that it'll help...n guess what?he'll b leavin...soon...wish me luck =)

i wont b tellin him bout this...SURE.Since v cant be anythin special..well,i will keep u as a special fren.i wish that one day,when someone asked me bout my life when i was 19-20,i can happily tell them that i had met a special,perfect person like u..=)

black fridae~

the stupid darn server was down when i completed my blog....gotta retype n hopefully i can get it posted...<--black fridae~

i guess compare to the stuff that had fallen on my frenz....this is just some tiny winy stuff...that will often happen 2 the lousy IMU server...(-.-)

well.......to whom it may concern,just cheer up okay..i know this may sound kinda "lou tou" but well...life's short,so gotta live it 2d fullest n appreciate whatever comes...ups+downs..take it as a challenge...i believe,tomorrow's gonna be a better day =) for the gurl,kah yie who suffered terribly for some sickly virus (thanx 2 microbio XD)...fai fai recover kay..miss ya cute cute face..=)

2 hours trip to UCSI..^^

went bk 2 UCSI 2 get my A-levels certificate today...
UCSI seemed kinda strange 2 us ed...haha, v nearly got lost! (sze ni,meei shya..XD)

lotz of constructions going on there...d buildings there...double thumbs up 2 UCSI!have mix feelings when i was there..walk passed the classrooms, the corridors,the library v used 2 hang out...miss u guyz LOTZ!!!i actually met a few familiar faces...xiang bin, vennee, valerie..haha~but i dun think they remember me lah...a tiny-miny character that used 2b part of UCSI...XD

i managed catch up with my favorite lecturer,ms mabel...<--sze ni,she's not my mum okay?!
the atmosphere was some what...cold.suddenly everythin seemed so far...ms mabel, i really gonna miss ur biology lecturez! =)

overall, the trip was nice...managed 2 ta pau bk the uncle's rojak!haha..memories~

快乐 (my frenZ out there,this is for u guyZ ^^)

快乐 是可以分享的
快乐 需要一些过程
快乐 总是能被记得
因为记忆只留下美好的

你是你自己的作者
何必写那么难演的剧本
别怪话说的太多了
我只是不要你不快乐

被爱 应该是幸福的
去爱 没有想像的愚蠢
相爱 可以非常地单纯
因为爱全是与生俱来的

你问 我怎么那么神
这些智慧该如何才获得
爱你 我认识了快乐
它带我上了难得的一课

有了你开心地 乜都称心满意
咸鱼白菜也好好味
我与你永共叙 分分钟需要你
你似是阳光空气

stranded!!!

its RAINING~~~~!!!damn...wrong timing...1st time so kiasu go finish of d CAL session questions, n now...ITS RAINING!!!
stranded in this deserted,boring island named IMU...oh yea,i'll blog somethin up again..

sem3 life has been some what....depressing (-.-) recall bk last November-Disember...i was actually lookin forward 2 start my sem3!what the heck....i tot everythin will be normal+fun+...normal...yea...well,maybe i'm askin for too much.

pharmaco...microbio...physical pharm lectures had made me think alot....what hv i done during the past 2 sems?!i really gotta get my engines started n start k-ing books...but then...sighz~ (lazy say lar!)muahaha...whateva...

haha, pei ling had just gave me her comments on my blog...oh well,she has the point...-just be urself..=) thanx lotZ ar gurl....love u guyz!ehem...minus the PMS fellaz lah...make everythin so complicated...XD

think bk again...pei ling,there is one side of me actually agrees with u....totally.but then again,v r not living in a one people world..sometimes what other thinks does matter...well,it depends on how v think n how v take it rite?hmm...yea,i'll try 2 b more positive lah...had been a bit pro-PMS recently 2....haha~

for the mei qi gangs,well...love u guyz lotz la...really appreciate our frenship..if its not for u guyz,i think i'll regret for coming IMU lah..i mean...look at the difference between the building of UCSI n IMU!seriously,i really wished that the downs will b over SOON n the ups will resume...=)

18012006

when was my last time posting somethin on this blog....*think think*
bcoz i forgot my loggin password...XD
anyway...
gotta wake up so early this morning....-8.00am- for some Lego fixing session...(-.-") damn sleepie now....WHAT KINDA TIME TABLE IS THIS?!!!

dunno y...suddenly felt kinda sad that seniors r leavin soon....March bah i think...so P105 will be "the seniors" now..hmm~n i dun even know d basic stuf...Q: whtz d difference between muscarinic n nicotinic receptors? ARGH~~depressing....

frenz around r starting to pair up...i guess what a senior said months ago during sem2 had started 2 come true....feelings,relationships,politics changed+evolved...even guyz experience PMS?!what the heck..how i wish that things had never change...just like d old times during sem1...when v started 2 get 2know each other...
- Things had changed-

got kinda fed up with a fren recently..v had been quite close n he had helped me with stuf sometimes..he is quite a gentlemen overall..but many words of his had been really hurtful recently..maybe he is trying 2behave n talk like us but it's just not acceptable..just different...i dun wanna hv hatred..should i avoid talking to him,or should i just try not 2 feel insulted+just laugh everythin away?
- Or maybe i had been very cruel in my words 2?-

yi jie went thru a few changes in her 20yrs of life...between form 5 n pre-U, pre-U n Uni....does this means that i need 2 change n refresh myself for another time?i seriously wanna know my own negative side n i desperately wanna change....i just wanna make myself....a more lovable person
- frenz out there,just tell me what the hell is wrong with me..i wanna hear critics-